I have been wondering this the past few days. I have found a guy who makes me laugh, i can talk to, and there are some common interest. Now I'm starting to find his faults. I drive home and think about how can i date a guy whose only a few inches taller than me and balding and has ugly furniture. I know it sounds crazy. So, i keep wondering what is wrong. Why do I try to sabotage myself? I find someone that I'm interested in and soon after I start looking around at others. I always do this. (I'm not talking about cheating or dating two or three guys at the same time) Yes, i have commitment issues but only with my heart.
I have such a hard time letting people into my life. Almost every person from my childhood through early adulthood has let me down and not been there for me. I can still count on one hand how many people really know me. As a child you adapt and you don't know any different. Kids are very resilient to their environment. It's always been me looking out for me. I've always done things for me. I push people away when they get close. The good ones stick around and let me work out my issues and (thankfully) let me work out my trust issues and learn to trust them.
I like the bad boys the one that you don't settle down with. Probably because i know nothing serious will come of it.
I just don't know what it means. I have been in a serious relationship before (not many but i have).
I have such a hard time letting people into my life. Almost every person from my childhood through early adulthood has let me down and not been there for me. I can still count on one hand how many people really know me. As a child you adapt and you don't know any different. Kids are very resilient to their environment. It's always been me looking out for me. I've always done things for me. I push people away when they get close. The good ones stick around and let me work out my issues and (thankfully) let me work out my trust issues and learn to trust them.
I like the bad boys the one that you don't settle down with. Probably because i know nothing serious will come of it.
I just don't know what it means. I have been in a serious relationship before (not many but i have).